The Journey of Self-Discovery and Renewal: A Personal Story

“When did you realize that your life has changed?”

I left behind not just my old friends but also the girl I was, the naive one who trusted people easily, the one always ready to mend broken bonds and help others, the one who easily saw the good in people regardless of their actions. Over time, these traits turned me into someone with low self-respect, someone who relied on others for emotional and mental stability, whose validation became more important than my own.

Reflecting on this journey, I realize that I became a puppet, manipulated by those close to me. I lost my charm, my identity, and my originality. It was like I was living someone else's life, not my own. My mental health started to deteriorate, and I could feel that things needed to change.

Rediscovering Myself

It was time for change. I slowly started reducing the time I spent with my friend group and focusing more on self-care. I read books, learned how to play the guitar, and explored new languages. Every day, I filled my schedule with hobbies, aiming to occupy my mind with activities that brought me joy.

My old friends started to notice the distance that had grown between us. They began to question me, bombarding me with inquiries: "Did you get a new boyfriend? Did you find new friends? Why aren't you spending more time with us? Are you angry with us? Are we not paying you enough attention?"

Embracing a New Attitude

Yes, they could have said it differently. I realized that I needed to focus on my self-worth, and that meant taking back control of my life. I no longer spent hours with my old friends, as I now had more important things to focus on. Overthinking, which used to occupy my days, became a distant thought. My old self would have cared a lot about others’ opinions, but now I hardly had time to even consider them.

I embarked on a healing process, not with the help of my old friends, but alone. Once I felt better, I started interacting with a new set of people who were genuinely kind, not selfish. I found new friends who accepted me for who I am, not who I could be for them.

A Lesson in Letting Go and Acceptance

One of the hardest things I had to do was let go of the memories and relationships that no longer served me. I started to love myself more. This was one of the best decisions I have ever made. It was a journey of self-discovery and renewal, and it has completely transformed my life.

Until we meet again, dear soul G.